your Dispatch on my Shenanigans

yes, i believe that!! its very tiring yet i know that in the end it will be very rewarding!

There are times that we are obliged to do things even when we dont want to do them, we whine along the way while doing it. We formulate beliefs that would help us go on or understand why a certain thing happens like  ”destiny” “it is meant to be” or “things happens for a reason” and this idea vs. reality.

“But even so, every now and then I would feel a violent stab of loneliness. The very water I drink, the very air I breathe, would feel like long, sharp needles. The pages of a book in my hands would take on the threatening metallic gleam of razor blades. I could hear the roots of loneliness creeping through me when the world was hushed at four o’clock in the morning.” 
― Haruki Murakami, The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle

You can be in a crowded place yet still feel so lonely, like a persistent sickness is all over you and there’s no way for you to shake it off.

While I was browsing the web in search for an article about loneliness, I stumbled upon a site where I found this quote that goes:

Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.

Now, am gonna have to agree, sometimes you just force yourself to accept how people are and try to be happy with it, yet deep inside you know that you aren’t authentically happy and just chooses to be alone.

When you choose something, you have to accept everything that comes with it. If you expect it to change believing that it is imperative that you are satisfied, consider that hoping is detrimental to your happiness. If it does not fit your standards then move on, never stop looking, bring with you a kind heart and an open mind while enjoying the journey, eventually things will fall into place. 

Attention is Cheap.

Whenever I browse my facebook page seeing people update their whereabouts, their never-ending opinion on something and uploading their pictures which shows no flaw regarding their lives, I wanted to puke and just turn the computer off thinking that “something” must be really wrong with the world now, yet while I was about press the exit button, it occurred to me that I am actually one of them in one way or the other.

I started browsing my own page, while compared to others, I “brag” subtly about my “perfect” life. While I don’t wish to court attention since am sick of it from when I was a child, it’s inevitable to want to let people know what I am up to, how I look now, afterall… my friends and relatives are curious I suppose. 

Now, am lost with my original thought. Oh well, I mean if you want attention, wear your bikini with your best pose, upload it and voila!!! oh well…. attention is cheap and tonight I was able to validate that. haha.

Wishing to change a person is detrimental to your happiness, if they don’t fit what you’re looking for then move on! Eventually, the one that is meant for you will come, just do not stop searching. Do not be fooled with “soul-mates” or fairytale-ish beliefs just because something about them is familiar, it can be that they just possess qualities that are same with yours. 

The world is big and life is beautiful. Douche bags are inevitable yet they make life exciting. Lastly, music will never ever leave you.

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